God/dess Works in Mysterious Ways

I've been struggling for a few years now with what I want to get a degree in and what I want to commit to doing as a career for the next good bit of my life.  Because of this, I decided almost 2 years ago to finish up the last few credits I had left before getting just a generic AA degree so that I'd have something.  We decided my husband would go back to school and that would give me time to think.

Now my husband is a semester away from graduating, and I'm still lost.

A couple weeks ago, I stumbled upon this book in a local bookstore.  I found it browsing in the real estate section, and once I started thumbing through it, I knew it wasn't just coincidence that I found this book.

So of course I bought it.  I've been reading through it and doing the exercises.

Last night, I had some one-on-one time with God/dess.  I asked for a shove in the right direction, and I really meant a shove.  I'm rather thick-headed and I don't seem to catch on to the divine's hints and subtle signs.  I asked for a kick in the rear-end in the right direction, pretty please.

I brought this book with me to work today, and in some down time I started the next chapter.  I'm at the part of the book where the author explores 10 different mindsets, the 2nd of which is creative thinking.  I've always been told I'm creative, but I've always kind of thought I was artistic, but not necessarily creative.  The distinction I'm trying to make is that creativity is basically being able to think outside the box, to come up with new ideas and think differently than other people.  Everyone has the capability of being creative.  I've just always thought that my ideas were inside the box, that I had difficulty thinking outside of the box or coloring outside the lines.

Then I saw this paragraph: 
                 "Lighten up.  Taking yourself too seriously and worrying about being perfect are the greatest stumbling blocks to creativity.  Too many talented writers, musicians, inventors, and others quit because they view their work as less than perfect."

Even just reading that hit me like a rock on the head.



I still don't know where I'm headed or what I'll major in.  I have 3 or 4 main choices, but they're all over the map: graphic design, teaching, maybe medical transcription or chiropractic care?
But in the meantime, in my hubby's last semester, I'm going to work on my confidence.  I'm going to work on taking myself less seriously, and I'm going to think positively.

I will figure this all out.  I don't know when and I don't know how yet, but it'll happen when it's supposed to.